Brittle resolve....haunting memories

Today, after a huge realm of time, amidst testing times and crushing work pressure,i got a relapse of the shadows of my past - one that had the most sweetest of moments - which ultimately remained a dream like a mirage in a desert.

Those 2007 moments are hard to forget - bitter to relive -yet the most cherished. They were as desperate as the hot sands of desert soaking in the the cool ocean waves,still pleasant as blooming daffodils swaying in the virgin European summer.

It was not my prerogative to experience this nor was it the mandate of fate - it was just an encounter that began with merging of ideas - albeit conservative.While i kept telling myself not be surprised by this and not to pay attention to this personality - deep down,i had already fallen for its aura, got enchanted by its captivating charisma and an innocent slave of its wishes.

Rationality suggested that it was not possible for this celestial feeling to culminate into any sort of socially acceptable institution,but no mortal is rational when in love.
Was it my weakness or her strength - it took me 9 weeks of  mirror practice and immense self belief to convey myself to her at a very unlikely venue - the railway platform.It was not the best of place but a very apt moment- lines of poetry flowed making an immediate mark.

Here was the cruel tryst with wicked destiny - it all ended almost when i said it. What followed were certain decisions taken by me by impersonated by my surroundings. In course of time,she drifted away to follow the mundane rules of life and it all never again seemed to come together.

So was it a wave of lost love or just a conscious decision by two individuals respecting each others constraints,we did not question the cosmic plan.

But even now, when i am stressed,i close my eyes, it all unfolds before me like yesterday - no metaphoric comparison can elaborate the rise in heartbeat on thinking about her.
It was the best thing to happen to me - it was also the best thing that i lost - but as i began writing, the memories come to haunt me every now and then.

My Friend / Co-Worker

During my times not so good,

With me, you fought hard as you could.

With joy at heart and work in mind,

Thanks a lot; you are so very kind,

Along with a new life inside you,

I had the strength of not one but two,

You burnt the midnight oil a lot,

Ever indebted to you for that.

As you move to a very special phase,

Do whatever your doctor says,

Pray to God, do your level best,

That is enough to pass this test.

Will keep my fingers crossed,

Let me know the time has passed,

Give me the news of the little one,

When your pleasant struggles are all done.

With ability to transform all around you,        

Friends like you are far and few,

Do not be modest for now,

Take the credit where it is due.

Chanel Farewell

@ the Chanel Farewell Lunch....


Chanel welcomed me with Survival as a goal
Foul memories attached to this FI role,
A brand image to protect, and pride,
Had to take it all in the stride.


Few dark apocalyptic days came,
But time never remains the same,
With the learning curve on the rise,
Daily experiences made me wise.


In a few days from there on,
Smile made way to the frown,
Joe called it remediation,
For me it was more redemption.


Having conquered the inside me,
Needed results for Mike to see,
The trust was back,so was the glee,
It then had to be what it had to be.


Papa John was my 'Go-To' man,
Mike Arnold-I am his biggest fan,
Melanie was kind,let me talk to her,
Enough for me to work further.


At the brink of passing it all to Jay,
Do your Best- is what i would say,
Risks and Rewards here are at par,
So just work, do not see too far.


Like all rolling stones,they say,
have to move on,keep the comfort at bay,
I too have to reach my next horizon,
Hope it will be as much fun

Just want to finish well next week,
After that ,I will be there if you shall seek.
Of course possibilities of that are very bleak,




Thank you all for the tolerance,
That is the real Chanel fragrance,
But,If i ever again cross this shore,
Surely will want to visit the Chanel store