Brittle resolve....haunting memories

Today, after a huge realm of time, amidst testing times and crushing work pressure,i got a relapse of the shadows of my past - one that had the most sweetest of moments - which ultimately remained a dream like a mirage in a desert.

Those 2007 moments are hard to forget - bitter to relive -yet the most cherished. They were as desperate as the hot sands of desert soaking in the the cool ocean waves,still pleasant as blooming daffodils swaying in the virgin European summer.

It was not my prerogative to experience this nor was it the mandate of fate - it was just an encounter that began with merging of ideas - albeit conservative.While i kept telling myself not be surprised by this and not to pay attention to this personality - deep down,i had already fallen for its aura, got enchanted by its captivating charisma and an innocent slave of its wishes.

Rationality suggested that it was not possible for this celestial feeling to culminate into any sort of socially acceptable institution,but no mortal is rational when in love.
Was it my weakness or her strength - it took me 9 weeks of  mirror practice and immense self belief to convey myself to her at a very unlikely venue - the railway platform.It was not the best of place but a very apt moment- lines of poetry flowed making an immediate mark.

Here was the cruel tryst with wicked destiny - it all ended almost when i said it. What followed were certain decisions taken by me by impersonated by my surroundings. In course of time,she drifted away to follow the mundane rules of life and it all never again seemed to come together.

So was it a wave of lost love or just a conscious decision by two individuals respecting each others constraints,we did not question the cosmic plan.

But even now, when i am stressed,i close my eyes, it all unfolds before me like yesterday - no metaphoric comparison can elaborate the rise in heartbeat on thinking about her.
It was the best thing to happen to me - it was also the best thing that i lost - but as i began writing, the memories come to haunt me every now and then.